Flying

I long to soar with the birds

So free

So beautiful 

Weaving through the tree limbs

Beaconing me 

Fly with us, they seem to whisper

Fly

And so

One windy day

I grab a tall ladder

The tallest I can find

And climb

Up the tallest tree

Until i sway with the branches in the breeze

At the upmost branches 

I stand 

I watch

I wait

And then

As the birds dive around me

I jump

Pushing off the branch 

A laugh escapes my lips

As air rushes around me 

Tangling my hair

The sun is on my back

The ground is far below

I have never felt so free

I am flying

Sorry

Sorry 

I use that word

Way to much

Over

And over

And over

Again

Sorry

I apologize 

For everything

For Being me

For things other people do to me

For things that happen I really had no part in

For saying sorry

I'm still sorry

I'm sorry for saying sorry

So goddamn much

I'm sorry

For all the stupid things I've done and said

I'm sorry for being me

I'm sorry for being so stupid 

I'm sorry for not doing anything when I should

I'm sorry for being so lazy

For not doing enough

For doing too much

For standing out

For blending in

I'm sorry.